This time fifty-odd years ago, there's a good chance that if I wasn’t already married with a dress to conceal a hefty baby
bump, it certainly wouldn’t be long before I was. It would have been
unimaginable to sit, the way I had tonight, listening to Hannah compare our
marital status’ to an average Saturday night pre-drinks with the girls.
Just
like I would never go home several Jaeger bombs and a bottle of wine later, I
would never get married at 21, either.
And that isn’t because I think it’s wrong to get married in your early
twenties and it’s not because I have a problem with people who do, either. I
may not want to get married at 21, but I’m a big believer in doing whatever you
want and making your decisions for you and nobody else.
The reason why I don’t want to get married
at 21 is because I don’t want to get married yet. There’s not even a slither of space for marriage – it hasn’t
even entered my head as something I will be embarking upon in the near future.
In the same way I organise my food shopping, I don’t want to skip to aisle 23
when I haven’t even passed the glossy magazines at the front entrance. But, girls my
age - girls I consider to be very similar to myself in a lot of other ways, do want to get married now. Some are married now, and I couldn’t help but
wonder why there’s such a sharp divide. I wanted to get to the bottom of the
true reasons why I would never want to get married at a young age.
I don’t feel the necessity of it at an age
where I’m financially unstable. I want the big dress that I can afford to buy
and the perfect reception which I don’t have to budget. I imagine the girls
looking beautiful as bridesmaids and a guest list big enough for there to be
plenty of men for them to dance with/(let’s face it now) pull. And very
importantly, I want a honeymoon, which means I can be a Mediterranean Princess
for two weeks. And who cares what that sounds like - it’s your big day and it
should be the way you’ve always wanted. After all, haven’t we been planning
this since we first discovered Disney's eternal and endless array of princesses? There’s no way on this planet I could fund
that kind of wedding now.
Marriage doesn’t secure a neatly laid out
life plan, but if I got married now, I feel like life would be a sliding slope
towards nappies. I am a massive baby person but, building a career plays a major role, and I always wanted to
do that first. In ten years I will be 31 – and I haven’t thought that far ahead
yet. So if I do all the things I want to do in the space of two years, instead
of ten, sure I may be young, but will I have rushed things?
And what comes after the wedding (apart
from the honeymoon)? A couple of years of newly married bliss followed by lots
of babies (or three) a few years later? If I walked down the aisle now, I would
have done all that by 25. It scares me that I could be 25 with a husband,
children and a stack of ironing. Not to mention a Smeg fridge, crammed with organic god-knows-what and
a freezer full of fish fingers and smiley faces for emergency evenings where I
have no organic foods left to feed my 21st century nutrition-imposed
children.
Of course, none of the above would be an
issue, if it wasn’t for the fact that at 21, I don’t entirely feel like I know
what I’m doing yet. There are things I’m sure of and things I’m not so sure of.
It’s a sort of limbo space between adolescent and adult. Being young gives us
an excuse to make mistakes; we’re still learning, we’re still finding our feet
and if we trip along the way then it’s okay, we’re forgiven. But marriage isn’t
an impulse purchase in Whistles that you can return once you realise you can’t
afford your rent. It’s not spending £100 on a night out, or missing the last
train home. It’s not falling down a flight of stairs in a nightclub and
knocking yourself unconscious - It’s real and it means something and you have
to be sure you’re ready. And if I’ve done all of the above in the
not-so-distant past, then surely I’m not ready to a) stop doing those things (even
though I clearly should for my health) and b) get married.
The age we get married is quickly becoming
a debate of our generation, and it gets quite bitchy, but why? There’s such a
divide circling the topic; the girls who don’t agree with getting married early,
the ones who see no advantage, and the ladies who are either engaged or married
already. And of course they will defend their choice- because that’s a decision
they’ve made, I'm sure, for a very good reason - one not to be questioned by me or anyone
else.
It is interesting, however, that over the
age of 25, no one seems to give a second thought. The average age for a woman
to be wed in the UK is 28.9 and for men, 30.8. Whether you’re married at 26,
28, 31 – there’s a clear window of time where it’s a non-issue. Sure, if you get
over a certain age, there’s the combined sound of biological ticking and voiced
concerns of family members which get louder every passing minute,
but being under-25 with a ring on your finger and you don’t warrant the same
widespread reaction. Congratulations may be in order, but as unfair as it may
be, the news can be also quite shocking. And I’ll admit, maybe this is why
young women don’t want to get married early, because of the way society may
view their choices. Who can blame us? We’re only human and it’s so easy to be
dictated by what other people think. Maybe the women who do get married at a young age, just don’t give other people’s
opinions a second thought. Hoorah to them, because I couldn’t do it.
My last, and probably most important point
which may have been worth mentioning earlier was that I have a boyfriend who
definitely doesn’t want to get married yet either. And lets face it, you can
plan a wedding without the input of a man, which I fully intend on doing by the
way, but you can’t propose to yourself. Maybe it’s not about whose getting
married when or how many girls on your Facebook have tied the knot before 22 –
maybe it’s about meeting someone who wants the same out of life as you do (at
the same time and in the same order). At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter
if you’re on the fast train, you just need to be on the same track and you’re
already halfway there.